Maybe you even go as far as to think that because you have lived this wallflower life, that God would see you this way too. And that couldn't be farther from the truth. Our God is a pursuing God.
Psalm 139:7-12 tells us
"Where can I go from Your spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend to heaven, You are there; If I take the wings of the dawn, If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea, Even there your hand will lead me, And Your right hand will lay hold of me. If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me, And the light around me will be night, "even the darkness is not dark to You, and the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike to You.
Psalm 139:17 says
"How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!"
The fact is that God is pursuing a relationship with you. Now what you do in response to that pursuit is up to you. You might think, "Why would He want anything to do with a mess like me?" Or maybe you think you already know him. Do you think if you already know Him, He isn't going to pursue you anymore? It's like we only let God in "so close" before we put up this protective wall around ourselves to keep us in a little bubble. Our little wallflower bubble.
We unknowingly carry over our human relationship habits over to our relationship with him. We carry over our fears and insecurities over and just figure there is no way God is going to keep chasing after me after all this mess. But he does. He knows me and loves me not because of who I am but in spite of who I am. It's because of His character, not mine.
Romans 5:8-9 says "But God demonstrates His own love towards us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from the wrath of God through Him."
In the video, Angela told a story of her trip to Europe where she was visiting St. Peter's Cathedral. She spoke of how awe inspiring it was and how she felt about such a splendid place of worship being named after what some would think was the "dorkiest" disciple. She was comforted and reminded by the fact that what she called a dorky disciple like Peter who denied Christ and who's faith wavered back and forth but then when he got it, he REALLY got it!
For me, the first thing I was reminded of by this story was again, God's constant pursuit of us. In Mark 16, Jesus had risen and when the stone was rolled away, the angel told Mary to go and tell Peter that Jesus is risen. He was the only person mentioned by name. See, despite his denying him, God STILL pursued him. And if he was still pursuing Peter, certainly he is still pursuing me. There is nothing I can do that will keep him from pursuing me.
So yes, God is coming across heaven and earth for you. Have you already met him? He is pursuing you. If you are not hearing His voice and recognizing His presence in your daily life, I challenge you to slow down and talk to Him and listen...really listen. Because he is pursuing your heart and he sees YOU!
